"It's Hard To Live In The World That No One Cares"

My parents raised me well in good deeds and educated me. I meet different kinds of people with different attitudes with different cultures in my journey of a thousand miles but no one cares and no one loves me except my parents, brothers and sister. I was sad and very unhappy throughout my whole existence in these Earth. But what can I do? The only thing that I can do is to pursue my education and achieved my goal for me and my parents.

Crush, love and likes - I set aside those things even though my heart said "yes" but my mind always said "no" because it will only lead to a broken heart or could be leading to a distraction. Instead, I dedicated myself for studying....reading...studying...and studying...working...studying...to cheer-up my self for living alone in a loneliness place. I choose to excel in academics than to have fun with friends since no one cares and no one wants me to be friend...Now, I tried to interact with everybody but it's hard for me to cope because I'm a selfish and a jealous person. But I can managed it.I just have to accept and learned the fact that I am not the only person.

I wish, I am just an easy go lucky person who have everything in material things so that I can focus myself in studying without having to work for money. In this way I can still be happy with at least one than to have nothing at all.

"If they don't like me then I don't like them also.Who cares? I don't mind them at all."That's the motto I created to build courage within myself. That's why almost everyone I meet everyday, talk everyday - I just know their face but not in their names.Furthermore everyone is just a by passers in my path and so is me to everyone.

If someone is good to me, no matter what's it's purpose, I can't help myself to find the reason and wonder a BIG "Why?"Maybe it's only in the beginning...Or maybe it's just only for temporary until it finds the right,or maybe ....i hope there's a reason....

The worst thing that could happen in my life is rejection. It will change everything and it will last forever. If I treat someone special close to my heart like a brother or sister to me and receive rejection, it will lead me to loneliness.Because things will be change. I will not approach it again because I don't want to receive rejection for the second time.I don't want to receive comments na makulit ako.Yes I will entertain but theres always a gap and limitation. Ayoko kasing napapahiya.

Wherever You Will Go

So lately, I've been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

[Chorus:]
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

[Chorus]

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart and your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

[Chorus]

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go

Facebook: What's On Your Mind

im still searching in the middle of the dark..........
still hoping for a light.......
i don't need companion.....
but i need a shoulder to lean on
...if it is needed....
but not necessary......
if I can do it alone....
it is better....
i dont need to bother everybody for my personal gain...
if someone offerred it, i'll accept it...
but it does'nt mean that i beleive you....
that your concern.....
everyone is just the same as the other....

I have my own world...
that only me can enter...
I can share happiness outside my world
but you can't share happiness into my world....
It will only lead to destruction....
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July 17 at 12:18am

I always do everything to be in proper order,
to be in the right road
to be in the right mind
Everything that i touch
everything that i see
...everything within my reach
but not all goes out well
to the way I am wanted
because everyone is different...
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August 2 at 8:48pm


By Passers

Happiness of a man are not 4ever.
Sometimes I am happy because your within reach
But the truth your too far away.
...
We shared a lot of things.
We shared ideas, happiness,
but something is missing.
Because we lack understanding.

Do I know U?
Your just a by passers in the road of my dream.
A temporary companion same as the other.
A road crossing ahead, you will be depart
But experiences is left in my heart.

August 8 at 1:48pm

I will continue to search those that I don't have...no matter what consequences is...because I beleive everything can get with perseverance and courage as long as I'm in the right path...God does'nt create faulty life... but you created it...if you seek help to the Lord, take action...do something...it will not come just by setting there waiting...Aug. 27, 10:30PM

Happiness of a man are not 4ever.
Sometimes I am happy because your within reach
But the truth your too far away.
We shared a lot of things.
We shared ideas, happiness,but something is missing.
...Because we lack understanding.
Do I know U?
Your just a by passers in the road of my dream.
A temporary companion same as the other.
A road crossing ahead, you will be depart
But memories is left in my heart
August 13 at 4:19pm

Changes

It's not been so long that we've known each other....
But I always find myself missing you every seconds of the day...
What could I do? Im just a human who misses your presence...
...Maybe because of joy that you shared with me every meeting;

........to be continue
August 20 at 3:43pm

sometimes its better to mind my own...
August 25 at 10:50pm

You always crossed in my mind but it's useless to think of you....
August 30 at 2:08pm

****Life Must Go On****
Life must go on with or without you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life must go on without anybody......

I can always stand.....and conquer what lies ahead...
...
If I find rejection, it will never happened again

I will do it once and it will never happened twice...

Just once and everything will change...

Because every actions, every work will remains in my mind

and it will keep in my heart forever...
Sept. 5, 2010