Christmas 2010

In less than 3 hours, christmas will come...and will go but it's just like an ordinary day to me.Everyone, every family is celebrating this yuletide season but not me.I don't have money to celebrate it.What's important is i'm working for my future.At this time sitting in front of a computer screen, writing on a blog, browsing the net, editing and updating my facebook and assisting the customer is all what I can do.

"Merry Christmas", greetings that is not meant for me. It's just for otheres.So do I have to say it for othere's whom I will meet?Yes because it is needed but I'm not in mood to say it?

Even with money I could not celebrate christmas with happiness. Why? Except the family, happiness is shared with othere's. Sad to say I don't have friends to share with smile and laughter.

From the time I graduated from high school, I lived in my own perspirations except those two years of studying vocational.Although I am far from my parents but they are the one who support for my living and financial needs. The rest through my perseverance, Im living alone.

The loneliness of being alone is what drives me to be more ambitious.
That's why Im still studying now to gain enough knowledge and to farther my connections to everyone.Who knows the one I could meet in school would be the bridge for my better future.

"Merry Christmas to everyone! Don't send me back the message...It's not meant for me."

Working Student Part 2

Ilang araw din bago ko napag isipang magsulat ulit.Siguro eh dahil nangungulila lang ako sa school o kaya'y nababagot lang ako sa buhay...Tungkol pa rin sa study ko...nakaraos ang first sem ko although parang hindi maganda ang grades ko sa tatlong subject-namely Prostat,Physics 1 and Soculita.Bakit?Siguro eh dahil di lang talaga ako makapag concentrate sa studies...puyat kasi ako lagi pag pumapasok sa school at palagi pang late sa Prostat pati sa Physics kaya kahit Math yong Physics eh di ko pa rin ma catch up ang tinuturo ni maam...marami rin siyang mga physics principle na noon ko lang na encounter na di nya na isinusulat kaya medyo nahihirapan talaga ako mag analyze.Sa Soculita naman kailangan presko at maayos tulog mo para makapag memorize ka ng maayos. Pag hindi kahit ilang beses kong basahin walang pumapasok sa utak ko kaya laging walang sagot sa filling the blanks and enumeration.Kaya minsan dahil lagi akong nasa unahan napapansin siguro ni maam na wala akong maisagot kaya nagkakaroon ng true or false sa pag nagki quiz niya.

Ang akala ko di ako makakatapos ng 1st sem.Akala ko di ko kaya.Kaya ko pala kaso pinansiyal nga lang ang problema.Lagi kasing late magpasahod si Ate(tawag ko sa amo kong babae).Madalas pa ngang hindi nagpapasahod ng 2 to 3 months kaya poro bali ako. Naiintindihan ko naman kasi talagang mahina ang sales kaso ang dam ko namang utang sa kapatid na di pa mabayaran.

October 20 na ngayon at sa November 8 eh pasukan na.Sana makapag enrol ako 2 to 3 days bago ang formal starting of classes. Sana magpasahod naman si Ate.

Bakit nga ba ako nag aaral? Kung minsan eh hinahanapan ko ng mga kasagutan ang kagustuhan kong makatapos ng 4 year course.Una eh gusto kong makahanap ng mas magandang opurtunidad - pag tapos ako ng apat na taong kurso, mag malaki ang chance, pangalawa nais kong maranasan ang pagiging working student at pangatlo gusto kong may pinagkakaabalahan ako dahil nakakabagot ang kasalukuyan kong trabaho.Tumatanda na kasi ako pero walang nangyayaring maganda sa buhay ko.Kailangan ko ng isang bagong karanasan naman. Ayokong nakatali sa isang tabi at hanggang doon na lang habang buhay.

Sa school, ok lang naman mga kaklase ko...yong iba tumataas ang kilay pag nakikita ako...Ewan ko kung bakit wala naman akong ginawang masama.Baka na insecure lang...hahah.ako nga ang dapat ma insecure kasi ang tataas ng grades nila.Yong mga babae, classmate ko lang sila...they are just ghost sa paningin ko because I'm also ghost to them so patas lang.Ganon din sa lalake. Mabuti nga sa lalake dahil kahit papaano may nakakausap ako, may nakakasamang kumain at nagtutulungan sa mga project specially sa programming. Saka I don't need friends naman. Mas gusto kong mapag isa dahil dun ako masaya.Yun nga lang sabi nga, I could miss one fourth of my life if without interactions. Kaya nagsisikap pa rin akong makihalubilo kahit madalas eh ako yong laging nasasaktan.Sabagay it' s already part of my life.

Antok na ko....on duty ako ngayong gabi and tomorrow tulog ako.

Working Student Story 1

It is very hard to study while working. There's always a short in time, always late, always in rush, always busy, no time for review, no time for gimmick, and always low grades to those subject that requires memorization and filling the blanks. By next week is our Semi Final Exam.I don't know if I can get 4000 pesos for the payment of my tuition fees.My Boss told me that she has no money.Our salary must be receive every end of the month but it's already eleven days had passed without receiving any salary.

I can't study well when examination is approaching.It's always hunted me.Where can I get that money, how to tell it to my Boss when the right time comes?

"It's Hard To Live In The World That No One Cares"

My parents raised me well in good deeds and educated me. I meet different kinds of people with different attitudes with different cultures in my journey of a thousand miles but no one cares and no one loves me except my parents, brothers and sister. I was sad and very unhappy throughout my whole existence in these Earth. But what can I do? The only thing that I can do is to pursue my education and achieved my goal for me and my parents.

Crush, love and likes - I set aside those things even though my heart said "yes" but my mind always said "no" because it will only lead to a broken heart or could be leading to a distraction. Instead, I dedicated myself for studying....reading...studying...and studying...working...studying...to cheer-up my self for living alone in a loneliness place. I choose to excel in academics than to have fun with friends since no one cares and no one wants me to be friend...Now, I tried to interact with everybody but it's hard for me to cope because I'm a selfish and a jealous person. But I can managed it.I just have to accept and learned the fact that I am not the only person.

I wish, I am just an easy go lucky person who have everything in material things so that I can focus myself in studying without having to work for money. In this way I can still be happy with at least one than to have nothing at all.

"If they don't like me then I don't like them also.Who cares? I don't mind them at all."That's the motto I created to build courage within myself. That's why almost everyone I meet everyday, talk everyday - I just know their face but not in their names.Furthermore everyone is just a by passers in my path and so is me to everyone.

If someone is good to me, no matter what's it's purpose, I can't help myself to find the reason and wonder a BIG "Why?"Maybe it's only in the beginning...Or maybe it's just only for temporary until it finds the right,or maybe ....i hope there's a reason....

The worst thing that could happen in my life is rejection. It will change everything and it will last forever. If I treat someone special close to my heart like a brother or sister to me and receive rejection, it will lead me to loneliness.Because things will be change. I will not approach it again because I don't want to receive rejection for the second time.I don't want to receive comments na makulit ako.Yes I will entertain but theres always a gap and limitation. Ayoko kasing napapahiya.

Wherever You Will Go

So lately, I've been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

[Chorus:]
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

[Chorus]

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart and your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

[Chorus]

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go

Facebook: What's On Your Mind

im still searching in the middle of the dark..........
still hoping for a light.......
i don't need companion.....
but i need a shoulder to lean on
...if it is needed....
but not necessary......
if I can do it alone....
it is better....
i dont need to bother everybody for my personal gain...
if someone offerred it, i'll accept it...
but it does'nt mean that i beleive you....
that your concern.....
everyone is just the same as the other....

I have my own world...
that only me can enter...
I can share happiness outside my world
but you can't share happiness into my world....
It will only lead to destruction....
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July 17 at 12:18am

I always do everything to be in proper order,
to be in the right road
to be in the right mind
Everything that i touch
everything that i see
...everything within my reach
but not all goes out well
to the way I am wanted
because everyone is different...
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August 2 at 8:48pm


By Passers

Happiness of a man are not 4ever.
Sometimes I am happy because your within reach
But the truth your too far away.
...
We shared a lot of things.
We shared ideas, happiness,
but something is missing.
Because we lack understanding.

Do I know U?
Your just a by passers in the road of my dream.
A temporary companion same as the other.
A road crossing ahead, you will be depart
But experiences is left in my heart.

August 8 at 1:48pm

I will continue to search those that I don't have...no matter what consequences is...because I beleive everything can get with perseverance and courage as long as I'm in the right path...God does'nt create faulty life... but you created it...if you seek help to the Lord, take action...do something...it will not come just by setting there waiting...Aug. 27, 10:30PM

Happiness of a man are not 4ever.
Sometimes I am happy because your within reach
But the truth your too far away.
We shared a lot of things.
We shared ideas, happiness,but something is missing.
...Because we lack understanding.
Do I know U?
Your just a by passers in the road of my dream.
A temporary companion same as the other.
A road crossing ahead, you will be depart
But memories is left in my heart
August 13 at 4:19pm

Changes

It's not been so long that we've known each other....
But I always find myself missing you every seconds of the day...
What could I do? Im just a human who misses your presence...
...Maybe because of joy that you shared with me every meeting;

........to be continue
August 20 at 3:43pm

sometimes its better to mind my own...
August 25 at 10:50pm

You always crossed in my mind but it's useless to think of you....
August 30 at 2:08pm

****Life Must Go On****
Life must go on with or without you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life must go on without anybody......

I can always stand.....and conquer what lies ahead...
...
If I find rejection, it will never happened again

I will do it once and it will never happened twice...

Just once and everything will change...

Because every actions, every work will remains in my mind

and it will keep in my heart forever...
Sept. 5, 2010

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My birthday is May 16, 1980.What day of the week is it? It was a question that comes out in my mind in my Elementary years but it was being answered by an old magazine with a calendar dated 1980. Few people can tell the days of the week for any date in the past or future with amazing speed,  probably less than a minute. How? Well every person has its own way of solving it but surely they don't spend time consuming computations for that because the numbers are already in their minds. The solution  number codes memorization.

 

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