"It's Hard To Live In The World That No One Cares"

My parents raised me well in good deeds and educated me. I meet different kinds of people with different attitudes with different cultures in my journey of a thousand miles but no one cares and no one loves me except my parents, brothers and sister. I was sad and very unhappy throughout my whole existence in these Earth. But what can I do? The only thing that I can do is to pursue my education and achieved my goal for me and my parents.

Crush, love and likes - I set aside those things even though my heart said "yes" but my mind always said "no" because it will only lead to a broken heart or could be leading to a distraction. Instead, I dedicated myself for studying....reading...studying...and studying...working...studying...to cheer-up my self for living alone in a loneliness place. I choose to excel in academics than to have fun with friends since no one cares and no one wants me to be friend...Now, I tried to interact with everybody but it's hard for me to cope because I'm a selfish and a jealous person. But I can managed it.I just have to accept and learned the fact that I am not the only person.

I wish, I am just an easy go lucky person who have everything in material things so that I can focus myself in studying without having to work for money. In this way I can still be happy with at least one than to have nothing at all.

"If they don't like me then I don't like them also.Who cares? I don't mind them at all."That's the motto I created to build courage within myself. That's why almost everyone I meet everyday, talk everyday - I just know their face but not in their names.Furthermore everyone is just a by passers in my path and so is me to everyone.

If someone is good to me, no matter what's it's purpose, I can't help myself to find the reason and wonder a BIG "Why?"Maybe it's only in the beginning...Or maybe it's just only for temporary until it finds the right,or maybe ....i hope there's a reason....

The worst thing that could happen in my life is rejection. It will change everything and it will last forever. If I treat someone special close to my heart like a brother or sister to me and receive rejection, it will lead me to loneliness.Because things will be change. I will not approach it again because I don't want to receive rejection for the second time.I don't want to receive comments na makulit ako.Yes I will entertain but theres always a gap and limitation. Ayoko kasing napapahiya.