When A day is Passed by

When a day is passed by, I'm worried
for the life that I will meet ahead...

when a year is passed by, I'm scared
for the day that my birthday comes...

I'm not a teenager anymore but still, I can't get
what I wanted most in my life - a secured future
not only for me but for my family as well...

It's not easy to soar up high ALONE in this
so complicated world without YOU.
YOU are my only TRUE FRIEND that I can LEAN on.

I just hope I can bear it till the end...
Show me your Mercy My LORD and I wish I will have more CHRISTMAS to celebrate your BIRTHDAY with YOU in this EARTH!!!

So that I will have more time to solve
the complicated equation of LIFE...

HAPPY Birthday!

Hanggang Pangarap Na Lang

Ang bawat araw ay hungkag.Walang buhay, malungkot at parating mag isa. Nakakasawa, walang pagbabago...pasok sa trabaho sa umaga, uwi sa gabi, or trabaho sa gabi at uwi sa umaga.Parang nakaprogram na ang bawat galaw...

At sa pagitan ng mga minutong yaon...nandun ka, laging sumisiksik. Kumusta na kaya siya. Masaya marahil. Sana ganon din ako. Hindi na iniisip ang mga bagay na wala. Ang ngayon o ang kinabukasan. Sana'y may katuwang ako sa pag abot ng mga pangarap. Kaso wala eh...Hanggang pangarap na lang. Lumalakad ang panahon subalit di ako makausad.Hanggang dito na lang siguro ang lahat.

I miss you

I don't care whom you really with for the rest of your life. A little attention is enough even its a one way love.Don't deny me. It would break my heart in pain. Life is short, it olds day by day.Hope that we enjoy the friendship that we build together when we're still young. Let us continue the memories of exchanging laughter, still have time to walk side by side and hope that in our busy time, no matter where you are, whatever you do, just don't forget to say hi!Because a word from you will fullfill the emptyness of being alone.I miss you.

People change.Its would be better if its me. So that I could not feel the pain.But as of now how could I forget you, I could not resist the temptation of missing you every seconds of the day.Your always running in my mind.

The Start of a New Path

May 26, 2010, a new path of my life has been open.I thought it would never come true but at least I managed to enroll at STI Computer College in this date.Mix of emotions of excitement and fear. Excitement because this is my dream come true to study Computer Science since I was graduated for a 2 year vocational course. This is also my dream to finish a Bachelor course through self supporting.Fear because of financial problem, a problem of many self supporting students nowadays. Fear of my health because I can only have two, three, four up to six hours of sleep in a day or no sleep at all. My work as a Computer Technician in a computer shop is 12 hours at night shift that can reduce to 8 hours since my classes for the next day is whole day from 7:00 AM to 7:00 PM.If my classes for the next day start at 10:00 AM, I can have 7:00 PM to 7:00 AM work(12 hours). If I can or should I say I must pursue a 12 hours working just to sustain my financial needs. The truth if not 12 hours, I cannot finish even the first semestral break of this year....for a salary of 250/day for 12 hours. For 8 hours work it could be 166 or more per day which is not enough to save 15000 for 4 months. This is a suicidal decision that I made for my life.
Whatever life comes ahead...even a greater number of sorrows, hope I will pass it. The important is I'm happy and I'm enjoying it.
When it comes to my parent...they need me. They're just a plain housewife and a laborer in a farm.They are already nearer to sixties, already old to look for their own food. What more can I give? I AM THE OLDEST OF THREE CHILDREN..,the second son, have been married, the 3rd daughter-my only sister could be the only one who could take care of my parents....

A Studies That Will Never Come True

I am just an ordinary citizen who has an aim of becoming an astronomer someday....a scientist or maybe an inventor. Wahhhh. Do you think I am a talented person? No, I'm not. I'm just applying everything I've learned from school, community, and those that circled me. Talent is not only at birth, but It is also on what is your purpose, on what you accomplished, on what do you want, and on what do you do in your spare time. Hobbies are the one that drives your talent. That's why I want to study. Study this, study that, study everything as long as I believe that I can, except the word "afford" because it is my problem.
I plan to study little by little through a ladderized coursed. I managed to study a 2-year course Computer Technician through Private Education Student Financial Assistant (PESFA) scholarship by TESDA in a private school in Naga City. I was very happy when I was graduated that time even though that day is just like an ordinary day to me because after returning home(boarding house) with my mother from a graduation ceremony, we went to sleep. I was hoping that I can continue my studies in Manila for a Bachelor's degree as a working student but I was very dismay and almost lost hope after I've seen the tuition fee in every school. But what caught my attention is a public University named Polytechnic University of the Philippines (PUP). They offered only a P11.00 pesos tuition fee. A very low tuition fee compared to a private school with P700 to P2000 depending on your course. Then after having permanent work with a very low salary I started saving it for my dreams that someday I will be admitted and study in this university.
I was graduated with a 2-year course last March 2002 and now is 2010. At last, my dream would be fulfilled. But when I inquire about this University, I've learned that I am forbidden to study there. Only freshmen that do not enter any college or universities, transferring students of the same course with one year of studies and a baccalaureate degree holder are welcome to admit. They said It is the rule of their University and maybe I can be admitted to another school (Private) with a case like mine is admitting. Nais ko pa sanang sumagot noon "Alam nyo po ba kung bakit dito ko gustong mag aral? Dahil this is only the University that I can afford? Sa tingin nyo po ba kaya kong mapag aral ang sarili ko doon?", but I didn't say it...It's useless and unethical. Everything is clear to me. I can't study anymore at this University.
So what do I do? Life must go on. Still working and still dreaming. Maybe tomorrow everything will be in reverse, everything will be different in the future...
But I'm already old...This is my problem...I hope I am always young so that there's no space for the word "rush" to me.

Hope

Since I was a boy, my mother always give me an advice every time I commit mistake or every time I have a wrong doing .Until now I keep that advice in my everyday life. Because of that I’ve always wanted to be a good boy in order that my mother will be proud of me. Even until now, I want people seen me as a good child. I wanted to be a good example not only with my brother es and sisters but for the peoples around me and a good citizen for my country. As long as I could, I take everything by myself just not to let anyone down.Even in the hardest time I would rather keep it secret than to let everyone know. I don't trust anybody. I did’nt shout the pain, I keep it to hide in my heart because I’d prefer to be alone and heal it by time.
All this years, I’ve never been have a true friend. Even in the past, I’ve never find happiness with others.Only in my own-on what I have done, on what I have finished and on what I have fulfill. I focused myself on studying ,i treasured every books I read,every information I’ve gained and every lesson they teach me everyday just to be the best in the class and just to be a good example of my fellow student.
The truth, I’ve never find happiness from others, I only find it on my own.I don't know how far this could be but I know that it will last only when the fulfillment of my dreams is just around the corner.
Time is passing by.It’s to fast for me and I can’t hold or pause it.As of now, I can say I’m wasting my time.Waiting for the days to pass by without nothing left but a footprint.The footprints of hardships and an endless sorrow.My life is so hard but as long as I’m alive, as long as my heartbeat is pumping and as long as I am in need, hope is still there...A hope that will vanish only by TIME.

To someone kono

Everytime I see you, you're always give me a line of smile in my face.Problems has been set aside and temporarily forgotten.Eventhough I am the only one who loves you, Im still happy and contented as of now.Mahal na kasi bigas, wala akong ipapalamon sayo....!!!!joke....

Who Am I

Electronic lover,math lover,Computer lover,addict reader, and a knowledge hunter are words that are pointed to my character.Curiosity is the cause why I need to know all things.I always have the courage to research what comes out a question into my mind.I have something to search in an empty space in which even me would not know it.But one thing is for sure,I want to search something different,somethings informative,someone's amazing,somewhat wonderful to my eyes a nd soul.
In every days that are given by God is always very important.That's why as long as I have an eyes to see,a hand to do work,and a brain to think,I always find a way to search an additional information to feed my mind.Even just a grains of information,pag naipon nama'y isang karunungang maipagmamalaki ko balang araw.

My My Biography

Alvin Tarvina Borromeo Decelo Moreno Pastor Panuncio Pesimo Bedes are the race running out in my blood.Im the oldest son in our family of three childreen.A person whom because of learned from books,family and poverty has full of ambitions,dreams and hope.It's inspire me those that are being well known because of their important contribution in the field of science and technology.
I came from a responsible and God fearing family whom does'nt have any belonging's kundi ang amin aming mga sarili.My father's occupation is only a laborer in a farm and my mother is only a plain housewife.Hence they all grown me well and educated and because of love we still intact in richer or poorer until now.
Through TESDA, I finished 2 Years Computer Technician.I do all kind of being a thrift person specially in food,no gimmick,just to sustain my studies.Furthermore, the fruits of my perseverance has came and finish with full of colors.But sometimes "enough has no end".For me those knowledge I've gained from that studies is not enough to sustain my hungry mind.Maybe there's missing.And it came in my mind that I want to study again ant to finish a bachelor course but because of lack of money, those dreams is still a dreams until now.
Time Brings...I need to leave my family,my childhood birthplace just to look for my good fortune and if succeed, even a little by little I can now help with my parents to ease the pain of sorrow in their life.
Now Im here, could be working,could be searching for a job and could be no more job.Still living with the challenges of life and has not yet losing hope.I'm always dreaming that at the back of the dark clouds,there's always a sun that will give his bright shining light.

Working Student Part 4

Sa wakas nakaraos din ako.Nakahinga ng maluwag. Pagdating na pagdating ko kasi kanina from school....bagsak ang katawan....Alam ko kasing huling bisita ko na iyon sa school. Katatapos ko lang kasi ng depend tungkol sa product sa business concept subject namin sa school at yon din and natitirang professor na pipirma sa aking final permit kaya sabi ko nakaraos din....kagabi halos wala na akong maisulat habang kinokumpleto ang documentation about sa product na cellphone ang napili ng aming grupo....which is ako ang pumili non and ako din ang gumastos and ako din ang gumawa....parang wala lang ni piso wala silang binitawan...ang sama naman non.

Well ok lang ang importante nairaos ko ang depend....kahit wala akong long sleeves...nakihiram na lang ako sa school sa nga natapos na ka classmate ko na mag depend....Ihiniram ako ng ka grupo ko kasi samin sa subject na iyon ni isa eh wala akong ka close....irregular kasi ako...So ahead na sila sa akin ng maybe one sem.Kagabi lang kasi iniisip ko kung pwede ang black polo shirts na susuutin...pero yun talaga sinuot ko nang pumasok ako sa school. Naiwanan ko pa nga ang ID ko sa kamamadali. Buti na lang pinapaso ako ng guwardiya.Tinanong lang ako kung sino ang titser ko...

Sa pag aaral kong ito isa sa mga natutunan ko, sa oras ng kagipitan wala kang ibang makakapitan kundi ang sariling paraan, hindi kaibigan....ang kaibigan nandyan lang yan nag tetext pag may kailangan.

Nasabi ko palang huli ko nang punta sa school. Siguro punta na lang ako doon para kumuha ng grades kasi ayaw na akong payagan ng amo ko na mag aral pa ako...Pinapapili na ako kung mag aaral ako o magta trabaho. Pinili ko na lang ang trabaho kesa naman pag aaral na wala naman akong maitutustus kung walang trabaho. Wala naman kasi akong makuhang ibang trabaho. Sana Call Center. Call center lang talaga...kaso babagsak ako sa english.Yun ang problema ko. Parang di na ako makakagawa ng paraan para makapag aral muli. Parang di na ako makakapag patuloy pa.

"Alvin, kung ginagawa mong library itong shop at hindi mo ginagawa trabaho mo mabuti pa nga concentrate ka na lang sa pag aaral at hahanap na lang ako ng iba. Lagi na lang ganito na lagi ka dapat pagsabihan."8:57AM 19-Mar-11.

Yan ang eksaktong text message na natanggap ko sa aking amo. Marami na kasi ang hindi magamit na computer. Hindi ko na kasi maasikaso ng maayos kasi sa mga documentation at at poro project sa limang subject ko sa school ngayong sem na ito. Nadagdag pa yong yong PC na di naman sira pero di magamit dahil ayaw mag bukas ng monitor....nagloko yong AVR dahil madumi na or na dislocate lang....yong iba naman eh talagang board na...

Kung may mahanap lang talaga akong ibang trabaho...di ko pagtitiyagaan ang shop na ito. Kaso wala . Ayokong magmalaki na wala naman akong maipag mamalaki. Kung nakatakdang di na talaga ako makakapag aral...di ganon talaga...

Simula nong December... di pa ako sumasahod. Poro bali. Bali na lang ng bali. Wala namang sahod.Buti nga at nag aaral ako...At least nakakabali ako ng malaki laki...may dahilan para bumali.Papano kung di na ako nag aaral...Eh di naipon lahat ng sahod ko sa kanya. Di naman siya nagpapasahod. Kung ganon eh siguro weekly babali ako 1000.Kaya nga no nagtatrabaho para magkapera tapos di pa nagpapasahod...Ang hirap kaya ng ganon...dami ko tuloy utang ...nay utang pa ako sa 5'6. Tulad nyan ubos na yong bigsa na galing probinsiya...kauubos lang nong gasol nong isang araw...Alangan namang poro kapatid ko na naman ang gumastos para doon. End do na rin ang kapatid ko next month...wala na naman siyang trabaho....uuwi daw siya ng bicol after end do...wala daw pera...yon pa kinakatakot ko....sakali mang umalis ako dito sa shop. Pano kong pati ako wala trabaho....eh di si nene na lang ang mayron pano na...Ang hirap talagang mabuhay.....lalo na kung ginigipit ka pa lalo ng mga nakapalibot sayo...wala na yata akong pag asang makaahon man lang sa kahirapan....matanda na si nanay at nahina narin si tatay para mag trabaho sa bukid...Gustuhin ko man silang patigilin...wala naman akong maipapakain sa kanila...Dahil sa pangarap ko...Mahirap talagang timbangin ang mga bagay bagay.

The Best Way On Windows and Programs Installation...

1. Clean installation is the best way for installing windows.
2. After a clean installation of windows, install antivirus first before doing anything else.
3. It is better to take 2 to 3 partition of your PC for your data protection.30GB to 50GB would do for your drive C: that contains boot partition or your operating system likes windows. Your drive d is where you're my documents are located. You can use folder redirection to change the default location of your documents to a different drive other than C:.And your drive e: is where your games and installer are located. In that case, you will not lose any data if you want to change your OS or reinstall the operating system. Also, your user settings for your games on what you accomplished will not be wiped out if you reformat only the drive c:
4. To protect your operating system from viruses and data manipulation that could slow your PC, accidental deletion, user setting changes, and unnecessary files created by web browsing and other software during your work, it is better to protect and install a deep freeze on your computer. But be sure to have a separate drive or partition that is thawed to save your important files permanently.
5. When installing programs, it is better to use a serial than a keygen and a crack. But the most better way is to buy the software. Some undetected and newly created viruses and trojan hides by the programmer in the keygen and crack for easy propagation and distribution. Also when using a key generator, it is better to run it on a pc with Deepfreeze frozen and take down the serial generated by the keygen than to copy and paste it.
6. For your own security install an antivirus program first before anything else.
7. Never double-click a drive as it may be a bridge to the virus to be activated that resides in the root directory through autorun.
8. For those who cannot buy the software, there's a lot of software over the internet that is free to download and use without any limitation through crack or patches and keygen such as filestube.com,zshare.com,4share.com and many more if you are just patient in browsing. But I warned you to scan it first before running the program and use it at your own risk. For larger programs like games, it is better to download it in a torrent like torrentz.com,h33t.com, and so on...
9. Never forget these basic programs that must be installed on the PC, MS office, and of course, WinRAR or Winzip to read compressed files, adobe acrobat to read pdf files, open office to read (.odt) extension, klite mega codec pack from codecs.com to play any video type in the windows media player environment, adobe photoshop for photo editing software, burning software like Nero, daemon tools or Power ISO to read ISO and create virtual CD/DVD drive. With a virtual drive, you don't need to extract the ISO files to use it because it will read directly to ISO without having to be uncompressed.
10. If everything has been set up correctly, all games have been installed, perform a disk cleanup to your drive and disk defragmenter to improve system startup time. Disk defragmenter increases access speed by rearranging files stored on a disk to occupy contiguous storage locations.

Working Student Part 3

Last week was may Mid Term exam.But it was the time that i don't have time for studying or to review my lesson....I just copied it and forget it till next meeting I just found out that I had an assignment to fullfill.Because of my work I have to finish cloning every PC in the shop because my boss told me to reformat the system since theres a lot of virus already. Even it has the protection of deepfreeze, it is still vulnerable to virus when you're now using it.Its because My Document is found on drive D: where it has no deeepfreeze protection.So whatever the user has save on my document it will still be there even the virus that attact through usb.

Our shop has 120 pc divided into 3 rooms. I must finished at least one room for just one night.One room, the big one has been finished already or those that has a 160GB harddisk.On that night Im downloading a game NBA2K11,Prince of Persia, and setting up for the 250 GB harddisk.I have to download then install then patched and make sure its already working without a problem to be clone and deploy to 33 PC on the other room.That night im rushed because on the day I have an exam...I did'nt finished it because patching takes time and Im still downloading NBA2K11 and Prince of Persia-The Forgotten Sands. I decided to continue it on the next night since it's already 5:00 in the morning..."Im leaving", I said to my co workers. It was brownout, no current in the school when I arrived there...and computer is badly needed that time because I have to get a printed midterm permit. First I need to buy a couponbond to write a pormisorry note that my salary is not yet received and it will be received 2 to 3 days more. Since our first 3 hours meeting for COPRO2 is laboratory, so we don't have classes and the next 3 hours (10-1:00) will be COPRO2 lecture and it will be the time of exam for our COPRO2 so I have much time to study. I proceed to library, its quiet there to memorize.I was in my middle of review when my cellphne message tone rings...

Nabura ko na kasi but the message looks like this "Mag usap nga tayo mamaya...di mo ginagawa ng maayos trabaho mo.papasok at lalabas ka kung anong oras mo gusto.ginagawa mo nang library ang shop."

Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig when I read the message.nawala ako sa concentration sa pag re review as in ang nasa utak ko eh kung papano ko irereply ang text nya.Im doing naman my best matapos ko lang maclone lahat ng iyon. Di ko pa nga lang talaga sinisimulan yong 33 pc na 500GB kasi may mga inaantay pa akong game na idadawnload. Gusto ko kasi complete and patched it already.Ayoko kasi na kung kailan ako tapos nang mag clone saka ulit may idadagdag na game or may nakalimutan na ilagay.Mas mahirap kasi pag inisa isa mong i fixed ang bawat PC may may mali sa setup or kulang ng games.So sabi ko na lang sa reply...
"Tatapusin ko lang muna ang exam saka ko ipagpapatuloy ang pag clone saka dinadownload ko pa NBA 2k11 at need kong mag out agad 2 hours before ng klase ko...7am kasi pasok ko ngayon."
Ewan ko ba kailangan ko magpakahinahon sa lahat ng panahon...Kung hindi dahil sa kanya wala ako ngayon sa school na ito, sabi ko na lang sa sarili ko.
"Nong isang Linggo pa yang dinadownload mo ah...matagal ba yang NBA 2k11?"
ang reply nya ulit sa text. Hindi ko na sinagot...ayoko nang humaba usapan...No Talk, No mistake. At least ipinaalala ko lang sa kanya na week of exam namin ngayon kaya hope na naintindihan nya ko.
Nong magkita kami 2 or 3 days past...di nya naman ako kinausap tungkol dun...siguro mainit lang ulo nang mga oras na iyon...
Hirap talaga nag aaral at nagtatrabaho...laging rush ang lahat ng kilos mo at always hectic ang schedule.Kung pwede nga lang wag nang matulog.