A Studies That Will Never Come True

I am just an ordinary citizen who has an aim of becoming an astronomer someday....a scientist or maybe an inventor. Wahhhh. Do you think I am a talented person? No, I'm not. I'm just applying everything I've learned from school, community, and those that circled me. Talent is not only at birth, but It is also on what is your purpose, on what you accomplished, on what do you want, and on what do you do in your spare time. Hobbies are the one that drives your talent. That's why I want to study. Study this, study that, study everything as long as I believe that I can, except the word "afford" because it is my problem.
I plan to study little by little through a ladderized coursed. I managed to study a 2-year course Computer Technician through Private Education Student Financial Assistant (PESFA) scholarship by TESDA in a private school in Naga City. I was very happy when I was graduated that time even though that day is just like an ordinary day to me because after returning home(boarding house) with my mother from a graduation ceremony, we went to sleep. I was hoping that I can continue my studies in Manila for a Bachelor's degree as a working student but I was very dismay and almost lost hope after I've seen the tuition fee in every school. But what caught my attention is a public University named Polytechnic University of the Philippines (PUP). They offered only a P11.00 pesos tuition fee. A very low tuition fee compared to a private school with P700 to P2000 depending on your course. Then after having permanent work with a very low salary I started saving it for my dreams that someday I will be admitted and study in this university.
I was graduated with a 2-year course last March 2002 and now is 2010. At last, my dream would be fulfilled. But when I inquire about this University, I've learned that I am forbidden to study there. Only freshmen that do not enter any college or universities, transferring students of the same course with one year of studies and a baccalaureate degree holder are welcome to admit. They said It is the rule of their University and maybe I can be admitted to another school (Private) with a case like mine is admitting. Nais ko pa sanang sumagot noon "Alam nyo po ba kung bakit dito ko gustong mag aral? Dahil this is only the University that I can afford? Sa tingin nyo po ba kaya kong mapag aral ang sarili ko doon?", but I didn't say it...It's useless and unethical. Everything is clear to me. I can't study anymore at this University.
So what do I do? Life must go on. Still working and still dreaming. Maybe tomorrow everything will be in reverse, everything will be different in the future...
But I'm already old...This is my problem...I hope I am always young so that there's no space for the word "rush" to me.