Hope

Since I was a boy, my mother always give me an advice every time I commit mistake or every time I have a wrong doing .Until now I keep that advice in my everyday life. Because of that I’ve always wanted to be a good boy in order that my mother will be proud of me. Even until now, I want people seen me as a good child. I wanted to be a good example not only with my brother es and sisters but for the peoples around me and a good citizen for my country. As long as I could, I take everything by myself just not to let anyone down.Even in the hardest time I would rather keep it secret than to let everyone know. I don't trust anybody. I did’nt shout the pain, I keep it to hide in my heart because I’d prefer to be alone and heal it by time.
All this years, I’ve never been have a true friend. Even in the past, I’ve never find happiness with others.Only in my own-on what I have done, on what I have finished and on what I have fulfill. I focused myself on studying ,i treasured every books I read,every information I’ve gained and every lesson they teach me everyday just to be the best in the class and just to be a good example of my fellow student.
The truth, I’ve never find happiness from others, I only find it on my own.I don't know how far this could be but I know that it will last only when the fulfillment of my dreams is just around the corner.
Time is passing by.It’s to fast for me and I can’t hold or pause it.As of now, I can say I’m wasting my time.Waiting for the days to pass by without nothing left but a footprint.The footprints of hardships and an endless sorrow.My life is so hard but as long as I’m alive, as long as my heartbeat is pumping and as long as I am in need, hope is still there...A hope that will vanish only by TIME.