May 26, 2010, a new path of my life has been open.I thought it would never come true but at least I managed to enroll at STI Computer College in this date.Mix of emotions of excitement and fear. Excitement because this is my dream come true to study Computer Science since I was graduated for a 2 year vocational course. This is also my dream to finish a Bachelor course through self supporting.Fear because of financial problem, a problem of many self supporting students nowadays. Fear of my health because I can only have two, three, four up to six hours of sleep in a day or no sleep at all. My work as a Computer Technician in a computer shop is 12 hours at night shift that can reduce to 8 hours since my classes for the next day is whole day from 7:00 AM to 7:00 PM.If my classes for the next day start at 10:00 AM, I can have 7:00 PM to 7:00 AM work(12 hours). If I can or should I say I must pursue a 12 hours working just to sustain my financial needs. The truth if not 12 hours, I cannot finish even the first semestral break of this year....for a salary of 250/day for 12 hours. For 8 hours work it could be 166 or more per day which is not enough to save 15000 for 4 months. This is a suicidal decision that I made for my life.
Whatever life comes ahead...even a greater number of sorrows, hope I will pass it. The important is I'm happy and I'm enjoying it.
When it comes to my parent...they need me. They're just a plain housewife and a laborer in a farm.They are already nearer to sixties, already old to look for their own food. What more can I give? I AM THE OLDEST OF THREE CHILDREN..,the second son, have been married, the 3rd daughter-my only sister could be the only one who could take care of my parents....
Monday, May 2, 2011
A Studies That Will Never Come True
I am just an ordinary citizen who has an aim of becoming an astronomer someday....a scientist or maybe an inventor. Wahhhh. Do you think I am a talented person? No, I'm not. I'm just applying everything I've learned from school, community, and those that circled me. Talent is not only at birth, but It is also on what is your purpose, on what you accomplished, on what do you want, and on what do you do in your spare time. Hobbies are the one that drives your talent. That's why I want to study. Study this, study that, study everything as long as I believe that I can, except the word "afford" because it is my problem.
I plan to study little by little through a ladderized coursed. I managed to study a 2-year course Computer Technician through Private Education Student Financial Assistant (PESFA) scholarship by TESDA in a private school in Naga City. I was very happy when I was graduated that time even though that day is just like an ordinary day to me because after returning home(boarding house) with my mother from a graduation ceremony, we went to sleep. I was hoping that I can continue my studies in Manila for a Bachelor's degree as a working student but I was very dismay and almost lost hope after I've seen the tuition fee in every school. But what caught my attention is a public University named Polytechnic University of the Philippines (PUP). They offered only a P11.00 pesos tuition fee. A very low tuition fee compared to a private school with P700 to P2000 depending on your course. Then after having permanent work with a very low salary I started saving it for my dreams that someday I will be admitted and study in this university.
I was graduated with a 2-year course last March 2002 and now is 2010. At last, my dream would be fulfilled. But when I inquire about this University, I've learned that I am forbidden to study there. Only freshmen that do not enter any college or universities, transferring students of the same course with one year of studies and a baccalaureate degree holder are welcome to admit. They said It is the rule of their University and maybe I can be admitted to another school (Private) with a case like mine is admitting. Nais ko pa sanang sumagot noon "Alam nyo po ba kung bakit dito ko gustong mag aral? Dahil this is only the University that I can afford? Sa tingin nyo po ba kaya kong mapag aral ang sarili ko doon?", but I didn't say it...It's useless and unethical. Everything is clear to me. I can't study anymore at this University.
So what do I do? Life must go on. Still working and still dreaming. Maybe tomorrow everything will be in reverse, everything will be different in the future...
But I'm already old...This is my problem...I hope I am always young so that there's no space for the word "rush" to me.
I plan to study little by little through a ladderized coursed. I managed to study a 2-year course Computer Technician through Private Education Student Financial Assistant (PESFA) scholarship by TESDA in a private school in Naga City. I was very happy when I was graduated that time even though that day is just like an ordinary day to me because after returning home(boarding house) with my mother from a graduation ceremony, we went to sleep. I was hoping that I can continue my studies in Manila for a Bachelor's degree as a working student but I was very dismay and almost lost hope after I've seen the tuition fee in every school. But what caught my attention is a public University named Polytechnic University of the Philippines (PUP). They offered only a P11.00 pesos tuition fee. A very low tuition fee compared to a private school with P700 to P2000 depending on your course. Then after having permanent work with a very low salary I started saving it for my dreams that someday I will be admitted and study in this university.
I was graduated with a 2-year course last March 2002 and now is 2010. At last, my dream would be fulfilled. But when I inquire about this University, I've learned that I am forbidden to study there. Only freshmen that do not enter any college or universities, transferring students of the same course with one year of studies and a baccalaureate degree holder are welcome to admit. They said It is the rule of their University and maybe I can be admitted to another school (Private) with a case like mine is admitting. Nais ko pa sanang sumagot noon "Alam nyo po ba kung bakit dito ko gustong mag aral? Dahil this is only the University that I can afford? Sa tingin nyo po ba kaya kong mapag aral ang sarili ko doon?", but I didn't say it...It's useless and unethical. Everything is clear to me. I can't study anymore at this University.
So what do I do? Life must go on. Still working and still dreaming. Maybe tomorrow everything will be in reverse, everything will be different in the future...
But I'm already old...This is my problem...I hope I am always young so that there's no space for the word "rush" to me.
Hope
Since I was a boy, my mother always give me an advice every time I commit mistake or every time I have a wrong doing .Until now I keep that advice in my everyday life. Because of that I’ve always wanted to be a good boy in order that my mother will be proud of me. Even until now, I want people seen me as a good child. I wanted to be a good example not only with my brother es and sisters but for the peoples around me and a good citizen for my country. As long as I could, I take everything by myself just not to let anyone down.Even in the hardest time I would rather keep it secret than to let everyone know. I don't trust anybody. I did’nt shout the pain, I keep it to hide in my heart because I’d prefer to be alone and heal it by time.
All this years, I’ve never been have a true friend. Even in the past, I’ve never find happiness with others.Only in my own-on what I have done, on what I have finished and on what I have fulfill. I focused myself on studying ,i treasured every books I read,every information I’ve gained and every lesson they teach me everyday just to be the best in the class and just to be a good example of my fellow student.
The truth, I’ve never find happiness from others, I only find it on my own.I don't know how far this could be but I know that it will last only when the fulfillment of my dreams is just around the corner.
Time is passing by.It’s to fast for me and I can’t hold or pause it.As of now, I can say I’m wasting my time.Waiting for the days to pass by without nothing left but a footprint.The footprints of hardships and an endless sorrow.My life is so hard but as long as I’m alive, as long as my heartbeat is pumping and as long as I am in need, hope is still there...A hope that will vanish only by TIME.
All this years, I’ve never been have a true friend. Even in the past, I’ve never find happiness with others.Only in my own-on what I have done, on what I have finished and on what I have fulfill. I focused myself on studying ,i treasured every books I read,every information I’ve gained and every lesson they teach me everyday just to be the best in the class and just to be a good example of my fellow student.
The truth, I’ve never find happiness from others, I only find it on my own.I don't know how far this could be but I know that it will last only when the fulfillment of my dreams is just around the corner.
Time is passing by.It’s to fast for me and I can’t hold or pause it.As of now, I can say I’m wasting my time.Waiting for the days to pass by without nothing left but a footprint.The footprints of hardships and an endless sorrow.My life is so hard but as long as I’m alive, as long as my heartbeat is pumping and as long as I am in need, hope is still there...A hope that will vanish only by TIME.
To someone kono
Everytime I see you, you're always give me a line of smile in my face.Problems has been set aside and temporarily forgotten.Eventhough I am the only one who loves you, Im still happy and contented as of now.Mahal na kasi bigas, wala akong ipapalamon sayo....!!!!joke....
Who Am I
Electronic lover,math lover,Computer lover,addict reader, and a knowledge hunter are words that are pointed to my character.Curiosity is the cause why I need to know all things.I always have the courage to research what comes out a question into my mind.I have something to search in an empty space in which even me would not know it.But one thing is for sure,I want to search something different,somethings informative,someone's amazing,somewhat wonderful to my eyes a nd soul.
In every days that are given by God is always very important.That's why as long as I have an eyes to see,a hand to do work,and a brain to think,I always find a way to search an additional information to feed my mind.Even just a grains of information,pag naipon nama'y isang karunungang maipagmamalaki ko balang araw.
In every days that are given by God is always very important.That's why as long as I have an eyes to see,a hand to do work,and a brain to think,I always find a way to search an additional information to feed my mind.Even just a grains of information,pag naipon nama'y isang karunungang maipagmamalaki ko balang araw.
My My Biography
Alvin Tarvina Borromeo Decelo Moreno Pastor Panuncio Pesimo Bedes are the race running out in my blood.Im the oldest son in our family of three childreen.A person whom because of learned from books,family and poverty has full of ambitions,dreams and hope.It's inspire me those that are being well known because of their important contribution in the field of science and technology.
I came from a responsible and God fearing family whom does'nt have any belonging's kundi ang amin aming mga sarili.My father's occupation is only a laborer in a farm and my mother is only a plain housewife.Hence they all grown me well and educated and because of love we still intact in richer or poorer until now.
Through TESDA, I finished 2 Years Computer Technician.I do all kind of being a thrift person specially in food,no gimmick,just to sustain my studies.Furthermore, the fruits of my perseverance has came and finish with full of colors.But sometimes "enough has no end".For me those knowledge I've gained from that studies is not enough to sustain my hungry mind.Maybe there's missing.And it came in my mind that I want to study again ant to finish a bachelor course but because of lack of money, those dreams is still a dreams until now.
Time Brings...I need to leave my family,my childhood birthplace just to look for my good fortune and if succeed, even a little by little I can now help with my parents to ease the pain of sorrow in their life.
Now Im here, could be working,could be searching for a job and could be no more job.Still living with the challenges of life and has not yet losing hope.I'm always dreaming that at the back of the dark clouds,there's always a sun that will give his bright shining light.
I came from a responsible and God fearing family whom does'nt have any belonging's kundi ang amin aming mga sarili.My father's occupation is only a laborer in a farm and my mother is only a plain housewife.Hence they all grown me well and educated and because of love we still intact in richer or poorer until now.
Through TESDA, I finished 2 Years Computer Technician.I do all kind of being a thrift person specially in food,no gimmick,just to sustain my studies.Furthermore, the fruits of my perseverance has came and finish with full of colors.But sometimes "enough has no end".For me those knowledge I've gained from that studies is not enough to sustain my hungry mind.Maybe there's missing.And it came in my mind that I want to study again ant to finish a bachelor course but because of lack of money, those dreams is still a dreams until now.
Time Brings...I need to leave my family,my childhood birthplace just to look for my good fortune and if succeed, even a little by little I can now help with my parents to ease the pain of sorrow in their life.
Now Im here, could be working,could be searching for a job and could be no more job.Still living with the challenges of life and has not yet losing hope.I'm always dreaming that at the back of the dark clouds,there's always a sun that will give his bright shining light.
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